Then again... Hate me...
I'm so crazy/foolish and so stupid. Here you are willing to be back and yet here i am "refusing" it all. I used such word because i don't know what else fits to describe what i have done. But i hope you understand why i was able to do such. I am weak and sensitive. You know how i take things and what people say to me seriously. I get hurt so easily. And i got hurt so much. I have forgiven you ever since. I just need time to heal. I cared for you so much and i have loved you more than i love my self, enough to overcome the anger and rage i felt. But not every wound heals fast. As much as i wanted to move freely like before, there is something that has been stopping me. I didn't know what it was at first but now I know. The pain is what has been stopping me. I got affected so much by it.
I'll be back. Please wait. For the mean time, let me heal my self.
You loved me. You hated me. You've missed me. But I hope you do not hate me again for this.
6 Comments:
after reading your post again.. i realized that "no one waits forever" just a thought :D
"I cared for you so much and i have loved you more than i love my self, enough to overcome the anger and rage i felt." <- isnt it ironic that if you really love someone you never let him/her wait, and never to test how he/she feel for you. Coz you'll wake up someday that he/she is no longer waiting.. =)
let me clear something... i did not test how that person feels. The reason why i let that person wait because i still have the pain inside me and i am still trying to overcome it when he asked for a "reconcillation".
ayoko makipagplastikan s tao na makikisama ako s kanya or ssbhin ko n ok na ok na kami smantalang meron pa me hinanakit inside me.
and besides i explained nman why eh... if he still do not understand that ewan ko nlang.
hey relax ahehe, all i am saying is DONT LET YOUR LOVE ONE WAIT, if you really love him =D .. ahehe, so how is it now? are you happy and overcome those pain you encounter? :) hope so =).
"if he still do not understand that ewan ko nlang." well, and if he doesn't understand that, good luck to him and to you =) but i guess he verry much understand you, i guess?
and again, "PLASTIKAN", where did that came from? if ever, i think you dont want me to comment on that here on you blog =)
wish you light =)
nah nsabi ko lng yang word n yan to elaborate my explanation. other than that ala n akong gus2ng ipahiwatig pa na iba.
thank you for your comments. i like it. at least i know someone tries to read and visits my blog from time to time.
Thank you *hugs*
my pleasure my dear ahihihi
i also did enjoy reading your post.. till then =)
hope you wont delete me again on your friendster list.. or else you wont find other avid fan of your blog like me *belat*
not anymore. mwawalan me friend, avid reader, and a fan all in one very special package... hehehe
Thank you again... *hugs*
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